Anonymous

Someone know the truth and still deny
to see the light and still have no care
to feel the knock and live a fake
to embrace the dark and then die
is it because of the foolish pride or because have something to hide?
there is little difference between love and lie
to look up and see a bright blue sky
to walk through this life
to deal with toil and strife
it matters little how and why
just that discern the truth from the untruth
and then what hold the truth up high
so what is this?
that there is no hope just a futile life that is dry
deep in the heart want to believe what is so obviously
no meaning, no true joy, no peace of mind
how bland, how false, how blind.

The time flies by

I hadn't realized how long it has been since I wrote in here. Things are just going so great and I am having such a wonderful time. I just now realized how fast time is going by....

What is Life?

Life is what you make it, if you think it sucks then it does. If you think it rocks then it does. You got to get out there and do it, rather than just think about how you want your life to be. Ask yourself, what do you want to do in your life and just do it. There is really no excuses, no constraints within reason. Life could end at any moment and although we would not be alive to regret, you got to ask yourself do you want to die not doing the things that you have wanted to do.

Sitting at home for many years as a teenager, depressed, wanting to go out and enjoy my youth, I realised that I might have wasted that time away in my room, feeling sorry for myself, blaming my parents for my state because they didnt let me go out and do it. Then I look at many teenagers today, going out and doing what they want, whether it be crusing in mates cars, getting stoned and drunk, I admire them because they are doing what they want and when they look back at their youth they can say that they have done all that stuff and have hopefully learnt from it. Life should just be about enjoyment, doing things that you love. It is a gift that is given to us, and we are given the opportunity to live it out the way we want, whether we take enjoyment through drugs, through books, through friends, as long as you are doing what you enjoy I don't think that it matters. I want to grow old and live with a smile on my face about all the things that I have done, laugh at all my mistakes and smile at all my pleasures. I do not want to think back and think that I did not know how to live. That would be my biggest regret at all.

My first article was published (Media Indonesia Newspaper)

(25/09/07)

Mahasiswa kok Beli Buku Bajakan?

Generasi muda, khususnya mahasiswa, merupakan generasi penerus yang akan melanjutkan perjuangan untuk mencapai cita-cita bangsa. Untuk mewujudkan hal tersebut, generasi muda berkualitas dibutuhkan.

Kualitas pemuda bangsa dapat dilihat dari daya dan pola pikirnya. Semua itu harus diarahkan ke arah yang positif. Pertanyaan yang mungkin terlintas, "Bagaimana meningkatkan kualitas generasi muda bangsa, khususnya mahasiswa?"

Jawabannya adalah dengan buku.

Buku adalah jendela ilmu dan merupakan salah satu guru terbaik. Buku jadi media penyampai pesan dan ilmu yang mudah diakses sekaligus sistematis. Buku juga mudah diakses setiap pihak tanpa memandang status, pangkat, atau derajat.

Buku juga adalah salah satu media yang dapat membangkitkan kreativitas dalam mempertajam analisis. Mengasah daya kritis serta mampu mengembangkan daya pikir secara sistematis.

Buku dan mahasiswa merupakan satu kesatuan yang tidak terpisahkan. Ironisnya, banyaknya jumlah eksemplar buku-buku yang diterbitkan penerbit-penerbit yang ditujukan untuk mahasiswa tidak seimbang dengan jumlah mahasiswa itu sendiri.

Sebagian mahasiswa lebih memilih membeli buku bajakan atau memfotokopinya. Budaya itu terlanjur tertanam dan mendarah daging sehingga sulit dihilangkan.

Pemicunya, harga buku yang sangat mahal. Memang, ada semacam tanggung jawab moril. Mengemban titel insan pendidikan yang intelek serta logis, namun terpaksa mencabut kembali idealisme itu atas nama sebuah keadaan.

Kita memang membutuhkan buku. Kita memang makhluk yang terbatas, tetapi ketika kebutuhan berdialog dengan keterbatasan, yang muncul adalah toleransi. Meskipun itu melanggar prinsip-prinsip idealis.

Apabila sepintas kita memandang sebuah permasalahan, dalam hal ini buku yang mahal, sebuah pertanyaan yang akan muncul.

"Apakah kita harus memaksakan kehendak atas nama keadaan atau mencari solusi tanpa melanggar aturan?"

Mahasiswa cenderung lebih memilih alternatif untuk mendapatkan buku dengan harga murah, membeli di bursa buku bekas, di pedagang buku-buku kaki lima (walaupun bajakan) atau hanya meminjam dari perpustakaan umum. Tentu dengan kuantitas dan kualitas yang terbatas, sampai kapan?

Siti Fauzia/T-2.

Secret of life

I must be happy for everything around me

I have love, spirit and faith in my heart

I KNOW GOD ALWAYS ACCOMPANY ME WHEREVER AND WHENEVER I AM

I believe that GOD have the best plan for my life

I'll know how to be grateful and thankful for it all

When one door of happiness is closed, another are opened

I hope I'll love someone honestly and unconditionally

Sometimes the irony can cut off our feelings, but it will be disappear

The happiest of me don’t necessarily have the best of everything in life

Perhaps, I just want to be good at making the best of everything

So, I can bring my life along my way.

Everyone must think about marriage. How about me?

yeah, So do I. So, Why am I thinking about marriage? Could it be I've reached the ripe young age? hehe... I am in a romantic stupor about all kinds of things. I see all these sweet marriage where people get married and are in love and sweet to each other. It makes me believe that there really is something holy about marriage. I do believe that God ordained this. Marriage is a sweet thing. But so many people today are unfit to be married. I know I am! If you are selfish and can't take care of yourself, you have no business getting married. I'm for marriage all the way. I just think its sad to see how so many marriages start too soon and end way too early! Divorce rips people apart. God is the only giver of marital bliss. God, please give me a good marriage with the perfect man for me! My fiancé has so many qualities I want in a man. I tend to look at the negative, too! But for me he's so special...

He is:
Unselfish
Giving
Loving
Loves God
Wants a good family
Wants to provide for his family
Makes plans about his family
Knows how to fix things (intuitively)
Talks about how he will love on his wife with a dreamy look in his eye
I'm just saying he might be too good to let get away!
He is totally genuine, rare and unique.

I have really enjoyed be with him.
Really...
pleasantness...

POETRY

The Madness Within

The madness within peaks through
Like the sun through the broken window
I scream from inside
Yet no one can hear me
my scream go unheard
The madness builds with age
Like the rage
I feel meaningless
No good
I'm surrounded by family
But no one can hear me
I begin to conceal emotions
They grow and grow
The environment around me pauses
And I put on display
I know I'm different
Not the same
The rage shows its ugly face
I thrashes and bangs
I'm still screaming
The world I knows
Is not the world I knew
I'm screaming louder, louder, loudest
My mind races to find the answer
The long sleep. The long sleep
The madness within, rest

THERE'S NO TEARS ANYMORE! BUT, I'M STILL CRYING.

When I imagine about the future, My tears start to drop. One question to my self! What should I do now? The black clouds float around. The wind feels a little cold, but it felt a little bit nice.
Maybe, Only the blast of wind, seems never ending.
My thought is sailing. I want to make a time machine and return to the past.
When I was noticed and thinking about you, I felt very embarrassed and I really hate that feeling, that’s because I’m afraid to convey my feeling, even though I suppress it in my head. I couldn’t do anything about my heart. To act so composed, it has starts to hurt. I want GOD give me courage.
When I’m alone and with my bad crazy thoughts, I worry about what you think of me.
I’m not myself. I don’t like the fog around my heart. Depending on someone else makes me runaway. The glowing stars float out into the heaven.
I’m not stronger or more confident.
Do you see me smiling?

POETRY

War and Irony

I feel the irony of life's
Nurturing molestation
With painfully sweet romantic
Rejection
The Weapon driven home
Comfortably
In the womb of a moment's
Passing silence under
Big, green umbrellas
Outside a little cafe
As the rain sotly patterns
On the shiny brand new
Tanks
And thousands of
Armor-piercing rounds,
Stacked high,
Right next door to dollies with
Blonde hair and blue eyes
While puppies yelp
And wag their tails,
Nostrils flaring,
At the smell of the sulfur and
Tears mixing with soot from the
Smoke stacks
As our children pray
For the bombs to cease their
Taunting cackle
So they might curl beneath their
Blankets hoping perhaps this year
They saw on television
Right after the
Anti-violence commercial

VIOLIN?

Biola adalah sebuah alat musik gesek berdawai yang memiliki empat senar yang disetel berbeda satu sama lain dengan interval sempurna kelima. Nada yang paling rendah adalah G dan biola memiliki nada tertinggi di antara keluarga biola, yaitu viola dan cello. Alat musik gesek berdawai yang lainnya, bas, secara teknis masuk ke dalam keluarga viol. Kertas musik untuk biola hampir selalu menggunakan atau ditulis pada kunci G.
Sebuah nama yang lazim dipakai untuk biola ialah fiddle, dan biola seringkali disebut fiddle jika digunakan untuk memainkan lagu-lagu tradisional (lihat).
Di dalam bahasa Indonesia, orang yang memainkan biola biasa hanya disebut pemain biola, belum ada istilah khusus untuk hal tersebut. Orang yang membuat atau membetulkan alat musik berdawai disebut luthier.

http://id.wikipedia.org/wiki/Biola

PIANO?

http://id.wikipedia.org/wiki/Piano

OPINION

Ordinary Corruption

By Siti Fauzia

Corruption affects every country, people and of course its life. People in the world know about the corruption. It is an organized violence in ordinary day. It is the most worst act in the world. Nobody needs to be lectured by the corruption. Societies that have massive corruption suffer misery in a thousand ways. The assumption of it is simply wrong.

It retards progress and makes its victims poorer every day. it can be attributed to base human greed, exacerbated by the economic, social and political conditions of the country have allowed human greed to flourish unchecked. There is no better illustration to me of the debilitating affects of it. It so greatly enforces and maintains inequalities, acting as a barrier to economic and social development and those responsible who can afford generators for their big homes with their stolen money, just won’t see any of the negative effects of their theft while enjoying the benefits. It is terrible. It is a great paradox that almost every single person encountered has been incredibly kind, generous, welcoming and the trend is that the less they can offer the more they give. Whereas the people who have everything just take and make the country harsh and inhospitable for nearly everyone. This situation really does ram some realities home.

To fight against corruption is to ensure that the process is enshrined in the constitution. All offenders should be made to face the full wrath of the law. Economic, political and social measures corruption are put in place to improve the quality of life of people. Corruption can be starts at home; what do you expect of children who are taught to show so-called appreciation for what is otherwise their fundamental human right when they grow up? We cannot fight corruption when everyone sees it as a normal thing. We cannot be free of corruption but we can definitely minimize it. The only way to fight corruption is if we the people are willing to stand in line, wait for our turn and follow normal procedures. As long as there are no checks and balances there will always be corruption. In order to combat it, those guilty of corrupt practices should be punished severely.

MY NORTHERN STAR

Demi langit dan yang datang pada malam hari, tahukah kamu apakah yang datang pada malam hari itu? (yaitu) bintang yang cahayanya menembus, tidak ada satu jiwapun (diri) melainkan ada penjaganya…
(Q.S Ath Thaariq 1 – 4)

Aku melihat bintang di malam hari.

Mereka selalu ada dan bersinar di langit.

Tapi terkadang mereka bersembunyi di balik awan. Terkadang mereka redup oleh cahaya fajar.

Aku melihat satu bintang yang paling terang,

dia selalu menemaniku dalam setiap keadaan.

Itulah bintang utaraku.

I Love Life

I am soooo lucky that i have people who care about me so much...I really do appreciate it! I am feeling good right now. I should really be thankful that things are so good, compared to the past. I have some much to be thankful for!!! Life is the greatest gift i'll ever had! Everyone should think about that...don't waste any more time. You can change things. Ok, it'll never be perfect. But appreciate the good things. Simple things make me happy...
Take nothing for granted. If you do that, you'll never truely see.....

My Lifestyle

A. Memorize.
B. Fight off my irritability and temperamental attitude.
C. It is not the quantity but the quality.
D. Follow what is effective for me.
E. In Allah I trust.
F. Organize and prioritize.
G. First things first.
H. Don't toxify myself or else I will crack.
I. Don't be afraid to be different.
J. Read something over and over again.
K. Simplify my plan so I can be carried out easily.
L. Action speaks louder than words.
M. Never mind the conceited. Mind our own intelligence improvement.
N. From small things to bigger things.
O. Love of music.
P. The art of discipline and control.
Q. Wisdom in action.
R. Love of mankind.
S. More in-depth and more serious study.
T. Safety first.
U. Laziness is history.
V. Messing up is history.
W. Confusion and disorganization is chaos.
X. Knowledge without application is fruitless.
Y. Beat the cravings.
Z. Hands at work.

FENOMENA HANDPHONE

Hanphone
Many kind of handphone mulai bermunculan, makin sini tambah canggih aja.. whew.. emang kepuasan manusia itu ga terbatas.. selalu ada inovasi2 yang keluar dari otak2 manusia brilliant, smart, curious, freak, weird..
Two years ago Sony Ericsson ngeluarin handphone baru W800i yang warnanya orange- white plus ada warna silvernya dikit. Wkt itu W800i masih baru banget n belum dijual di tanah air. How much the price? Hmm.. wkt itu masih 4 jt sekian sekian dah.. Mmmm... gw musti beli piggy bank buat nabung, trus gw penuhin isinya ampe gw bisa beli tuh handphone. seandainya ada durian jatoh dari langit (knapa musti durian ? whahaha..) yg berisi uang $_$ yang buannyyyyakkk gw beli deh tuh handphone..
More a years kiprah Sony Ericsson melaju seperti pesawat boeing747 (he...) handphone bikinannya mulai various alias banyak ngeluarin seri baru (biarpun ga sebanyak merk No1 yang digemari di Indonesia). Memang, merk lain adalah teknologi yang mengerti anda, tapi Sony Ericsson adalah untuk Anda yang mengerti teknologi hehehe... (gw bukannya promosi lho) ^_^'
Sony Ericsson was launched hengpon 3G dan semacam blackberry (bentuknya cute baget n keren), tapi kalo ngga ditunjang ma kebutuhan ya sama aja un-useful). lagian harganya kaga tanggung-tanggung semua seh..
W800i, macem2 themes, games dan aplikasi W800i dah banyak di internet. Gratisan pula . Enak juga punya W800i. Kalo lagi iseng, tinggal take photo dengan camera 2MB pixel-nya(emang seh kelemahannya di pic photo, kurang jernih gitu deh...). kalo lg BT tinggal pasang aplikasi walkman-nya sambil dengerin musik dengan ato tanpa earphone. kmn2 ga perlu bawa charger, tinggal bawa USB (kbel data) bisa sekalian utak atik sambil charging.
Hummm... tapi kalo ada handphone yg lebih mantep, Why not? buat ganti..
tp gw bukan tipe handphone freak yang doyan banget gonta ganti handphone. yah.. maklum lah buat gw handphone tuh bukan barang murah (a.k.a handphone yang canggih lhoo).. whehehehe...........

All things University

I have been so hung up on cricket related things that I have neglected to inform about Univ.Univ is this hub of clubs, societies and crazy and weird groups. It is also the place I go to learn.I am not part of the crazy, weird groups as I tend to stray from weirdness. Funny that! It's just that I find it too much to have to force myself to socialize with people. If I have to force myself,then it's not really right or should I say natural and chances are I probably am not meant to befriend that person. But there are some people that I've met that I don't need to force myself to talk to and that conversation flows really well with. The whole freak of new people is such a daunting figure that it makes you seem so small and yet, this image of smallness is so real.Lectures were tough but I think I've got the skill of note taking now. I find it hard to stay awake in my early morning, 7am, lectures. But the aid of the bright lights in the lecture room cures that.It is at my 1pm/5pm lectures that I find it hard to stay awake because the room is relatively dark.Quizzes are freaking me out. I am not sure about how much I am suppose to study and not, thus this first quiz will prove to be a bit of an indication of how I am going. So I'll have to give you the score on that.The thing I fear the most about univ is the loss of personality. Coming from a place where my personality was so known and so recognized to a place where no one cares about who I am, what I like makes me feel like just another face in the crowd and I hate that feeling. I hate the impersonality of lecture rooms. That is why tutorials are much better and gradually in time,I'm sure my tutorial classes with get much better acquainted with each other.